Theta is another chillwave inspired song that owes it's birth again to the Moog Matriarch and Novation Peak.

I have learned a lot from working on this track, about letting go of ideas - moving in different directions mid-project and a general lesson on getting from the start to the finish through tonnes of uncertainty, doubt, and frustration. How this song started out is hard to believe, the initial parts are all now gone, they were recorded from the Moog Matriarch, a big 32 bar sequence with a lot of effects on the chain which created this huge synth soundscape that I thought would be the basis of the whole song, but after some time working on it I felt that the accompanying bass guitar lines and counter melodies that I wrote against the original sequence held their own - so I reluctantly considered lowering the main part to the back of the track (and a day later - it was deleted completely) - something which I traditionally would have struggled to do, a guess that is a form of "sunk cost" - but in the music creation sense. In the following days, I tried to finish the track off fast and move on but somehow it just wasn't flowing out of me as easy as normal - it became something different, requiring a lot of ideas and again - further changes of direction.

Finally, when I felt that I had it to a point of completion and I was fortunate enough to submit the work in progress to a private Chillsynth discord feedback group which was extremely helpful. When the song was playing on the "feedback radio" and the handful of listeners were now listening at the same time I was I started to hear things differently, it was almost like having a fresh set of ears to listen to the song for the first time once again. I quickly make a few notes from my own "fresh" ears, meanwhile, people were giving positive feedback and some suggestions that the song would really do well with an additional change up - a new bridge section or some different chords. I knew they were right, and again reluctantly decided that the "finished" work was actually not finished. The next morning I sat down and spent hours trying to key changes, new chords, a new bridge and finally very late that night I felt I had gotten something - I woke up the next morning expecting to experience that first listen with a feeling of "what was I thinking last night?? Did I actually think this was good yesterday??" - something all too common, but fortunately I was still feeling that it was nice and the song had once again evolved itself into something new. It was a great experience writing this track, it was opened my mind and thought me more than I could have imagined.

Thank you to all those who gave feedback and suggestions. I hope you enjoy. Once again - the view is from the living room windows in my flat - another overcast evening with a rainbow.